Saturday, May 24, 2008

Those aren’t stars, darling/That’s your nervous system

Do all public library study rooms smell like homeless people, or just the ones I’ve frequented? It's not even a bad homeless person smell, just distinct.


Entirely too many split infinitives splattered across today’s pages, but that’s less offensive than all the stories where people die in large numbers and their governments won’t allow aid in to help those who haven’t died but who still might. Also - apparently deafness and autism, as well as deafness and impulsivity, exhibit comorbidity. Three hours of reading psychiatric papers and abstracts of psychiatric papers (the jargon is piled ever so high in summary form) made me want to chew my lips off.


And so on.




I completely forgot what I had just intended to enunciate. Something about how


It's hard for me to write short sentences. Not terribly hard, but hard enough. A shortcoming that makes it necessary to be aware of itself - not like leprosy but not unlike Marv Albert's incident with biting the woman not his wife in the back for sexual pleasure. Also, short sentences: better. Limited adjectives: stellar.

So it is.

Friday, May 23, 2008

hometown

BRANDON, S.D. — Senator Hillary Rodham Clinton defended staying in the Democratic nominating contest on Friday by pointing out that her husband had not wrapped up the nomination until June 1992, adding, “We all remember Bobby Kennedy was assassinated in June in California.”

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

post midnight notions








"In this election, persuasion isn’t important. Social identity is everything. Demography is king."

- D. Brooks, here


See also: David Foster Wallace, American Usage essay, specifically re: "YOU would say that."


Phenomenon: I don't hear you, I see who you are, and predict what you may happen to believe, deep down; my own response to this mishmash is replicative of how I identify, relate to, and pigeonhole you.

Question: Is this new?

Answer: (tentatively) It can't be, can it? Isn't that part of what 12 Angry Men is about? Isn't that part of what (for the last 20-30-40 years) the argument about difference is about? Is there something fundamentally different about niche-driven fragmentation now that the means of controlling one's input of what kind of world we live in comes with a remote control? Or is it kind of quixotic to think, pace Brooks, that the old demarcations of a town or city were incapable or at least less capable of keeping the various identity-defined subgroups from coming into contact with and influencing each other?

Redescribed phenomenon: I don't hear you, I don't see you, but when I imagine you (and my faculties for doing so are severely constrained seeing as I neither hear nor see nor meet you, except in grocery stores) what you are is transparently intelligible to me and what you believe follows the script I have inherited, regardless of who I am or you are or the circumstances of my inheritance really are.

Answer: Hmmmmmmmmmmm. But so when does the redescription verge on being so precious and self-explanatory as to cast doubt on the upshot of the redescription compared to the description it would seek to supplant?

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Monday, May 05, 2008

Shambles.

Flaming Lips' Soft Bulletin - a revisitation. (not a word)








I am not one who finds Wayne Coyne tiresome, really ever, until and unless I find myself tiresome. Coyne's interviews and general persona in the Lips docudrama evoke a sense of the kind of soft hippie adulation of possibility of which it is easy, but not mandatory, to disparage. I find myself tiresome retroactively, mostly, when it's clear that a certain dismissal was made out of hand and in service of that basic seen-it-all-done-it-all presumptiveness that, when identified, produces a shudder.

Coyne seems to be aware of this tiresomeness of things that starts with tiresomeness of one's own circumstances, and he's averse to it without being contemptuous of it. I like that - it comes off as acknowledging that it's possible to be willfully sullen but not really desirable. But it's not really that, either, this thing Coyne has going on, or not just that. "being open to possibility," for what that's worth as a description of a kind of stance toward the world Coyne urges, isn't such a bad notion to keep out in front of you in terms of negotiating the ephemeral happenstance stuff that contributes to one-day-and-the-next. It may be easier or more habitual to sort of assimilate the new into the old and keep it contained within the previous understanding - easier or more natural or more likely to be the response beaten into you by sheer repetition - but it can't be more fun or even more stimulating.

It's not clear how to weave together the way Coyne and the other Lips come off in self-representation with the music they make, nor is it necessarily something worth doing. I guess it's inviting in that the music (and I can only talk about the Soft Bulletin, which still confounds my understanding and digs its hooks into me without even trying, now, six or seven years after first coming to it) makes you wonder what its makers think about the process that led to it. After seeing the docudrama - I write that as if I know what it may connote, which I really don't, but it seems right - the thing that stuck is the absolute investment that Coyne makes in making music mean more than just making music. Not to get all Spin magazine or anything, but it is somehow easier to succumb to something when you know that part of what that thing is, is meant for you, expressly and without reservation or stinting pre-formulated idea about what that moment of contact may consist of. And the other slightly out of reach part of it, a dimension of it that is necessarily a product of conjecture, is - to me, here, about this album at least - a recognition that the creators' only assurance of what they make is to be wholly invested in the making of it and an invitation to contemplate what that investment was like at the time the thing was created.

If this doesn't make sense or relies on too much hazy pronoun antecedent confusion, where "it" could be seven things - well, that's part of the thing - and there may be an object lesson here about successful concept albums and the way they manage to elicit a fairly comprehensive engagement with the different possible concepts to which they may be pointing. And obviously if something is successful enough in what you take it to try to be accomplishing to make you wonder if what you take it to accomplish is what was intended to be accomplished, there's even more to think about.
So do it, if it charms you, is what I mean and what I've been doing.



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Thursday, May 01, 2008

your twenties choked with flowering vines; your thirties thinned to only what you tended

Nicorette gum, three pieces linked together, looking like prescription medicine, on top of the cell phone to which only love/hate dichotomies obtain. A post it note sponsored by, and bearing the name of, a small town bank in montana with the word "Baffler" scrawled in pencil across its lower third. A fairly intimidating flashlight, used when the backlight of this computer was out and the technicians at the store insisted that it was hardware, not aleatory fate, that led to the variations in accessibility. A book by a former dean of a law school where the undergraduate degree was taken, published by a press that used to give paychecks and allow inhuman amounts of coffee to be imbibed. a crayon drawing on the white top of the anesthetized IKEA desk, blue cross-hatchings encompassed in a red compromise between oval and circle.


A one pm exam, diluted in part by $.94 worth of coffee and the inevitable head-shaking transition from being nocturnal to being accountable when the sun is bright and cultivating glare. The idea of an exam, really, out there alone, by itself, conceptually disjunctive from the chronological notions of what would be getting done by this time, isn't any clearer than the idea of having to list off increasingly minute letters in sequential order with decreasing amounts of confidence.


Also, regarding economies of scale:


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Oh well. Tornado warnings tonight, snow tomorrow, it may be May now but there's no suggestion that a pause in meteorological and life-arc anomalies are on there way out anytime soon.